This picture epitomizes me on most days. I stand on a hill, somewhat removed from evrything thats going on, watching the world go by. Every now and then I venture closer to see if I am missing out on something, but alas I'm not. I try not to miss persons, places or things but I can't help it sometimes. To me, never looking back means being uncertain of where you are headed. Because the path behind you says as much about the journey you are on as the path that lies ahead of you. We often make the mistake of believing that we have chosen the life we live or rather that we are in control of it. Those assumptions are so far from the truth that it baffles me to this day when I hear people say things like "I am in control of my life" or "I will decide what I do with my life". Wrong wrong wrong!!! Yeah you may have some input, some say, as the older folks put it but you don't have total control. See, I've learned that control is nothing more than an illusion. No one really knows whats going to happen next. You can position yourself to create an optimal situation but if shit is meant to hit the fan, despite your best efforts, it will. Most you can do is make sure it doesn't blow back into your face. As for choosing the life you live...come'on man! If we could really choose our lives, we'd all be happy. Life chooses us. Plain and not so simple. If you really could choose your life, wouldn't you have gotten rid of that friend that always has something negative to say. Or that relative that always want to borrow money. You'd be driving your dream car, living in your dream house with your dream spouse and your dream kids...not Bebe's kids that seem hell bent on sending you crazy before they can even talk. Let's face it, most if not all of us have been given our role to play in this musical/comedy/drama/horror flick. Does that mean we can't enjoy it? Of course not, but don't allow yourself to fall prey to the deception of us actors choosing the life we live.
